It's Friday

Yeah, it's Friday. Whoopee! I'd still hate it, no matter what anyone says, it is the start of the weekend and I can't stand those two days. Don't get me wrong, I hate Saturday and Sunday more, but today, it is kind of worse, because it's taunting me, telling me that the weekend is going to run me over and there is nothing I can do about it!

I watched a movie last night. "Set it Off" it's called. It's about a girl stuck in life, with no way out, but the one way she's been trying to avoid forever - the way of crime. After her brother is shot by the cops, by mistake, she decides to go ahead with it anyway. By the end of the story, all her friends are dead, and she is unable to see the man she fell in love with, ever again. When I was little, I would have thought - at least she's free now. Alone, but free. - Not anymore, though. Freedom is not accomplished by running away from things. Instead, it's found by realizing what is most important to you. Someone once told me that people are lonely because they build fences instead of bridges. It's so right. So right!

P.S. A big plus for this movie is that the lead investigator is played by Dr. Cox. He was so funny! :D

Rocky terrain

Yep, everybody stumbles upon a few (or more) rocks on his path through life. Problems come and go and what's even more important, they will never stop, for anybody, they're just a natural part of life! Come to think of it, they are bigger than life! No matter if you have troubles with your job, your love life, or anything else you can think of... Moaning about them wont change a thing. Contemplations are OK sometimes, but if you start living inside them, you might get lost. When you know things aren't like they should be, it's time for a change!

The first thing to do (and the first thing I did) is evaluating the priorities. Once you know what's most important to you, then you'll know where are you going. The road ahead is quite clear! What I want to say is, when you get to a bunch of rocks you can't overstep, instead of turning around and going back (or worse - stopping and doing nothing!), why not build a quarry? :)

Sadness

I am sad. Tonight I was suppose to be in the arms that I love the most in the whole world, the only pair that makes me feel I can touch the sky, swim across all the oceans, run across all the lands, feel safe at all times. Tonight I was suppose to be with my love, but I am not. As sometimes happens, I ended up alone for the night, and being the person that I am, I feel empty inside. I always get atached to people to quickly, and when they are unable to be with me, I get sad. I know, this is not smart. But it's just the way I am...

To kill the sadness, I turned to Pink Floyd. I am listening to "Hey You" and "Wish You Were Here". I know, not a very smart choice for killing sorrow. They are reminders of the things I miss, and further more, they are telling me to fight for the love. But, I can't fight my self. Maybe that's why I'm sad tonight...