Good Bye?

This might be goodbye. I don't feel it anymore. It's as if I have nothing more to say. I find less and less reasons to get out of bead. And no, it's not depression, but I am afraid that if I get sucked into cyberspace once more, it might just become that.

I borrowed the photo from my cousins blog, cause it looks kind of like how I feel at the moment!

I tried to go away once, and it didn't work - just couldn't stay away. Having the need to tell everybody that I am going away, probably will spell out failure again, but what can I do? I'm just being me.

If I don't come back, bare in mind that I had a great time with you, my lovely friends, sharing thoughts and photos and such. If I manage to stay away, I will miss you. Hugs!

The Loner

I've often been told the saying - a picture is worth a 1000 words, but seeing as I am someone that loves to talk, I never believed it. But today, I can tell you that nothing has ever been closer to the truth.

This is a picture taken at the damn-bridge in Struga, this winter. I call it "The Loner". I feel kind of alone. Like the whole day is... empty.

It's Friday

Yeah, it's Friday. Whoopee! I'd still hate it, no matter what anyone says, it is the start of the weekend and I can't stand those two days. Don't get me wrong, I hate Saturday and Sunday more, but today, it is kind of worse, because it's taunting me, telling me that the weekend is going to run me over and there is nothing I can do about it!

I watched a movie last night. "Set it Off" it's called. It's about a girl stuck in life, with no way out, but the one way she's been trying to avoid forever - the way of crime. After her brother is shot by the cops, by mistake, she decides to go ahead with it anyway. By the end of the story, all her friends are dead, and she is unable to see the man she fell in love with, ever again. When I was little, I would have thought - at least she's free now. Alone, but free. - Not anymore, though. Freedom is not accomplished by running away from things. Instead, it's found by realizing what is most important to you. Someone once told me that people are lonely because they build fences instead of bridges. It's so right. So right!

P.S. A big plus for this movie is that the lead investigator is played by Dr. Cox. He was so funny! :D

It's a Beautiful Morning

It is a beautiful morning, and after a while, I can feel it. It is time for some positive energy to flow around and give smiles to people. That's what I was thinking about when I woke up a little less then an hour ago. There aren't enough smiles in the world.

And don't get me wrong, my attitude towards life and the world hasn't changed, but I decided to look at things from a different perspective today. At least today. I mean, when is the last time that a couple of smiles hurt anybody?

Hugs! :)

Calm Waters

I remember some verses from Tupac Shakur that said:

"Ain't nothing meant to lest forever,
so the struggling and the suffering ain't gonna lest forever"

But when are the calm waters coming? When will I be able to sit down, relax and say - finally, it's all over?

In the meantime, I wrote another poem. Don't ask me why...

Seriously, does anyone else ever had the feeling that they are stuck between the point where everything will be OK, and the point of total collapse and they will never get out of it? Because I have that feeling for a while now. And can't seem to shake it. I can't...

I say good morning to you all, and I hope that you have a way better day than me.

Hugs!

The First Day of Spring

I was kind of hasty yesterday. I was told that today is the first day of spring. Even better. Spring broke out, and here is a photo from the front yard of my cousin's house, taken this morning. It is, what you would call - a typical first day of spring. There's got to be at least 6 inches of snow. God damn it! I did not sign up for this. I was waiting for spring because it's warm and colorful, not to have snow, after surviving the winter with barely any white trash. :/

And on top of it all, it's still the weekend. I won't tell you why I hate it, but I can tell you there is something to do with love, so... Only positive thing I can think of is the fact that the temperature is high enough to melt the stupid snow, and it's doing that. The only problem remains that it won't stop falling!

One can only hope...

Another Stupid Weekend

I have to be the complete opposite of everyone else on the planet. Why? Because I have to be the only one that hates the weekends. There are a lot of reason for this, but let's not get into stupid details at this moment. I also hate the snow that is faling on our town on the first day of spring. I know, I know, I'm a little wierd. But, on the other hand, isn't everybody?

And whatever I wanted to say, it just kind of sliped my mind... Maybe I'll be back, but then, maybe not....

Visit Macedonia

My country is actually small. It's about 25.000 square km in total. But it is beautiful. A lot of nice places to visit. Mountains, lakes, old monuments...

So, if you are wondering about an exotic destination for your holiday, don't hesitate anymore. Visit Macedonia. It'll give you some wonderful memories and I think a new perspective on life! :)

Thanks For the Support!

I posted a poll about a week ago, asking if I should continue blogging, cause I wasn't sure, to tell you the truth. The poll is now closed. Thanks to all of you who voted, thanks to those who didn't as well. And most of all, thanks for the confidence. It means a lot to me that you all think I should go on writing my thoughts. It really does! Hugs! :)

It is a beautiful Saturday morning and I can't think of one thing to complain about. Maybe the absence of things to complain about is a thing to complain about! :P Just kidding. I think it's gonna be a nice day today. Make sure you enjoy every second of it!

Rocky terrain

Yep, everybody stumbles upon a few (or more) rocks on his path through life. Problems come and go and what's even more important, they will never stop, for anybody, they're just a natural part of life! Come to think of it, they are bigger than life! No matter if you have troubles with your job, your love life, or anything else you can think of... Moaning about them wont change a thing. Contemplations are OK sometimes, but if you start living inside them, you might get lost. When you know things aren't like they should be, it's time for a change!

The first thing to do (and the first thing I did) is evaluating the priorities. Once you know what's most important to you, then you'll know where are you going. The road ahead is quite clear! What I want to say is, when you get to a bunch of rocks you can't overstep, instead of turning around and going back (or worse - stopping and doing nothing!), why not build a quarry? :)

All the Things we can't change

First of all, I want to tell you that I have created my second blog. It'll be about the TV shows that I watch. I am gonna write stuff that I think are important about those shows, and I hope you'll enjoy it! :) Here is the link!

What I actually wanted to write about was all the things in life that we have no control over. Like, people that we love dying, accidents, crime, all the bad things you can think of. And we still get stressed over them. You just can't be indifferent of things that hurt you. But, as I said, you cannot change them. Not even a little bit...

On the other hand, there are the things we can change. As one saying says - the only way to change the worlds is trough one random act of kindness at the time. We can be kind to people, imagine, even to those that are strangers to us. Because, once that you give your hand to someone, he's no longer a stranger, he becomes your friend...

But most important of all are the people we love. Never forget about their love. Never take love granted. It might disappear one day, and never come back again. And when you finally find love, hold on to it! If you know that it is the real thing, if your heart tells you that he or she is the one for you and it never felt more right in your life, don't let them go! You will regret it the very next day. Or who's to tell you that today ain't our last day?

Good night cruel world :)

Someone once told me that the night is darkest just before the dawn. Couldn't believe it then, can't believe it now. I mean, OK, I know about the real night, I just don't buy the metaphor! Sure, it's motivating and all, but, one has to ask one's self - when is the god damn dawn coming, if anytime!

Nah, this is not a pissed off post. Hell no! :) It's just that I've always been mad at those people that talk about stuff they have never experienced. They talk about sorow when they've never been sad, they speak of love, and have never seen love...

All I want to say is - good night cruel world. I know you'll be much more cruel tomorrow. Cheers! :)

A Philosophical Question

To blog or not to blog? That seems to be the new philosophical question. Almost everybody I know, either has a blog or is reading a few of them on regular basis! All of my friends have blogs, although some of them are not telling nothing about them (they are using aliases because they are afraid or ashamed of the things they say). That is actually how I came to join you all in this blog-universe! Nowadays not having your own blog is like not having a phone number 10 years ago... or something. I don't know, I've never been good with similes. :P

By the way, I love this swing on the photo. I never have enough time to sit on it, cause whenever I am there, I'm being asked to stay off it, there is more important things to do, bla-bla-bla. But I still love it though. :)

Can't stay away

I had no PC access for a while, and it was frustrating beyond imagination! I did not realize that bloging could be this addictive. I just love it! :D If anybody wonders, yes, I had a great time while I was away, but I am going to tell you all about it in some of my next posts. For now, I want to keep it short and simple. :)

This is a photo I borowed from my cousin (thanks dude! :D). And it is not here without a purpose. I've came to realize in the last week that the posts with a few words and a beautiful picture in them, the short and simple ones, always made me feel the best. And because I love this photo, I am going to share it with the world and just thank all the good people that came here, wishing to be friends with me. Hugs! :)

Oh, the joy of the weekend!

This is the front yard at my cousin's home. I just visited his blog, and I saw that he had posted some cute pictures of him when he was a baby, so I remembered the time I was at his place, and when I took this. It was early fall, so it was warm, it was hot actually. Oh, how I long for that time. I hate the cold. :(

The weekend came. No more work until Monday. Oh, good. I can now blog throughout the whole day. I don't know if it's just me, but bloging thing is contageous. I can't stop since I started. I visit blogs, I share thoughts with people, I write comments, I post stuff, and on top of that, I have milions of things I want to say next. Please tell me it is the same with everyone, that I am not a freak!

Until next time, hugs for everybody. :)